Just days before we got your news, I had come across this question of Jesus’ that struck me and stopped me in my tracks. He asked of someone seeking healing, “Do you believe I can do this?”
I wasn’t sure why it was so powerful in that instant, even though I quickly thought of others for whom I prayed who needed a miracle. Then, days later, the news came of your cancer. After my mind stopped reeling, my legs stopped trembling, and my eyes stopped pouring, I instantly thought of that verse.
“Do you believe I can do this?”
“YES!” I screamed on the inside. “YES! YES! YES!”
And as I talked with Chris & others (you can guess who), I realized we were ALL screaming, “YES! We believe! HEAL HER!” It was as if we were huddling around you, lifting you up with our frantic cries.
And I’m quite certain if Jesus were nearby, we would be pushing through the crowd and cutting a hole in somebody’s roof to lower you down! (And, I’m sure the ropes & bed we’d use would be something cute & crafty if you had anything to do with it! Maybe with some tie dye sheets?!? And we would arrive only after we had made a spreadsheet about how to do it, laughed & cried the whole way there, and talked while we sipped iced mocha & munched on Texas Sheet cake –with whole wheat flour, of course.)
After a couple days, however, my prayerful panic transformed into a numbing peace. Yet I could not stop thinking about your beautiful hair and praying that you wouldn’t have to lose it.
“It’s just beautiful, God. You can’t take her hair. PLEASE don’t take her hair.”
And he reminded me that, as beautiful as you are in this temporary flesh, it is only a glimpse of the radiance he has designed in you that is eternal spirit. You’re beautiful, Sarah. Inside and out. Temporal and eternal. And, in this temporary battle, the eternal will become even more beautiful. I know it. I see it. He WILL bring you through this even more beautiful than before.
bibi says
AMEN to that dear……. im a screaming……actually….. a continuous shouting…to him
james says
I appreciate you! Thank you so much for loving Sarah.
sarah says
Way to make me cry.
I think we would have SEVERAL spreadsheets and yes to whole wheat sheet cake! And iced mochas!
I read not too long ago in John where Jesus asked someone, “Do you want to be well?” It sounds like a dumb question at first. But it has been playing over and over in my head. Something to meditate on for me.
YES! Yes! And yes to believing, may the Lord help any unbelief.
I love you and I appreciate you much-o!