Driving

I’ve been spending a lot of extra time in the car. I don’t usually like driving, but I haven’t minded it lately.

Every time I get out, I am surrounded by beauty! It’s spring! I love spring, the fresh greenery, the wildflowers, new beginning, new life.

The kids have seen a dove nesting and partially watched her lay her eggs and scold her mate for bringing the wrong nest supplies! We’ve observed calves in the fields. I’ve noticed scissor tails everywhere! The kids saw an owlet who had fallen out of his nest. The birds are chirping and happy as they go about their business. We’ve had some nice spring storms with that musty, just rained smell followed by a beautiful rainbow lighting up our sky! It’s been delightful.

It doesn’t feel right that in the midst of all this newness we are starting a path filled with so much uncertainty. James expressed our hearts well, he said, “my mind and my body are terrified, but my heart is at peace.” This is true.

When my flesh starts pondering what is going on in my body, it is terrified. But when my heart stays focused on God, I am at peace. The two are definitely trying to fight for prime real estate. I guess the one I feed will win.

Jesus already has the victory here, and I will continue to rest in his peace and let him lead me. It’s not that we aren’t struggling, we are. There is no way we could get through this without His covering.

As scared and as sad as I’ve been, at times I have felt wrapped in His love as if He had me snuggled on his lap. Through this darkness, He has walked with me and carried me when necessary. I know He will continue to as we go forward. I don’t understand why we are here entirely, but I know He does.

This week has started, and I am sitting in the first of 5 appointments this week. But the drive here was gorgeous. God has graced our countryside with beauty if you have the eyes to see it. My sister is watching my kids at a nearby park, they’re getting some cherished cousin playtime in! I am sitting and resting. As I sit here and my heart feels at peace. One day at a time. He will lead me.

Post script:
My drive home was guided by a beautiful sunset and the rising full moon on the other side. It was truly spectacular.