I am trying to take this losing my hair thing in stride. I have had a few breathless moments but overall I have been at peace with it. Oddly enough it comes as almost a relief as I had been waiting for it to happen. It is a visual aid of what has to be going on internally; I can envision the chemo attacking the cancer cells. Bam, bam! Take that, shrivel up and die!!! HA!
Though it has been a gradual process, I can say that one can never be prepared for losing their hair. I suppose it is a minor side effect in the grand scheme of things. There are many emotional ties, at least from my girlie perspective, that have had to be reckoned with. To run my hand through my hair and have it come back with a handful of hair is an indescribable sensation. Part of me wonders if losing it all at once would have been easier; kind of like pulling a band aid off fast instead of slowly picking at it. Each day my hair became thinner and more scraggly, slowly bald spots appeared. I have a lot of hair thanks to my Italian blood so the process has been slow.
On Sunday, I finally asked James to buzz it; I am officially without hair. It is a weird sensation. I keep wanting to brush hair out of my face, or tuck it behind me ear. Looking in the mirror brings an initial shock. I am sure with time I will get used to this new phase.
The kids have had mixed reactions to this process. My oldest (Grace) had the hardest time adjusting to my hair loss. She has always loved my hair. After a couple days, she decided that bald looks good on me. Sam (the youngest) was initially upset about the prospect of me being bald, time has done its thing and he has grown okay with it. Sam and Jessi had fun pulling wisps out before we decided to buzz. Jessi enjoyed cutting the final 6 inches off; like a true stylist she actually made it look decent before the final buzz.
I have decided to have fun with the baldness. We’ve been telling terrible bald jokes; they make us laugh all the same! If you know of any, please do share! II’ve decided I am going to rock being bald. 🙂
As additional plus, you can’t beat not shaving for a couple months! My legs are smoother than they normally would be! Showers will be much quicker and hey, I don’t have to buy shampoo or conditioner for a while.
I will leave you with one of our terrible knock-knock jokes:
Knock, Knock!
Who’s there?
Addair!
Addair who?
Addair but now it’s gone!
Gratefully,
Sarah,
You are so awesome. I have to admire your attitude and sense of humor during this time. You are an inspiration! I know that the Lord is giving you all that you need for this journey and I will continue to pray. You look beautiful with the scarf and your trust in the Lord is even more beautiful.
Blessings to you my friend!
Jen
Hope you are feeling stronger! So glad we got to meet you all the other evening! It was a highlight of our trip! Will be praying for you! We serve an awesome God, and He has you in His hand! Hugs! Aunt Nadine
You are beautiful inside & out my bunny.. I’m so proud of you and your courage. I’ve been reading all about your journey & I truly think you missed your calling. You should have been a writer. Thoughts & prayers are with you always. I love you!!