Rest

Hebrews 12:1-2

Therefore, since we are surrounded  by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders  and the sin that so easy entangles us, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

Over the weekend Grace was sick with a sore throat. She told me,”Mom, now I know how you feel.”

While we were sitting on the back porch talking she shared a very adequate view of how I feel, “My heart and my soul want to go go but my body says, ‘wait  for me!'”

Yes! Exactly.

My body has been itching to go and very frustrated with the lack of ability to act on that.

I am not used to such a sedentary lifestyle. I have found that I actually miss working out; and to think I always thought I hated it! There is something refreshing about getting your heart pumping and moving! Exercise has always been a tool used to renew energy on my part. An introvert at heart, I have enjoyed those times of inner reflection, my head always feels clearer, and my mood always felt renewed after a session. To have this stripped away has left a hole. Even though I wasn’t super good at it, I really miss playing soccer, something about chasing that ball around a field seems to have a way of setting the world right again. My heart aches to be active again.

I know this time of rest  is but for a season. There are aspects of it that I am enjoying and appreciating and hope to maintain.  There are so many lessons wrapped in it, I hope to keep the integrity of what He is teaching me. I am absorbing much, but I know I have much more to grasp, much room to grow.

I am grateful he is patient with me and that he has cushioned this time with love and support and yes, even rest, time to be still, time to heal and to grow in His truths.

(Jen, your heart and mine were in sync again, this scripture was already on my heart ; I even journaled it and then you sent it to me! Isn’t that precious?!)

Psalms 62:1-2,5,8 & 11

My soul finds rest in God alone;
My salvation comes from him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation;
He is my fortress, I will never be shaken….
Find rest, O my soul, in God alone;
My hope comes from him….
Trust in him at ALL times, O people;
Pour out your hearts to him,
For God is our refuge.
One thing God has spoken,
Two things have I heard:
That you, O God, are strong,
And that you, O Lord, are loving…