It was around this time last year we discovered a lump in my left breast. We have very distinct memories from this year. Some are super sweet while others are incredibly painful. Because I am still processing, it is hard to know which part of my story to share with you.
I am really grateful to be here. I am really grateful for my life. There is a movie out called, “The Croods.” My favorite part of the movie is when they wake up together yelling, “I’m alive!” They’re cavemen who appreciate every day.
The sweetness of that one statement rings true with me, although I cannot honestly claim that I have adopted their exact way of waking up. I might be a little less enthusiastic upon waking. I aspire to have that grateful attitude. It is such a sweet way to live.
God continues to teach me to rely on His daily bread. I’ve relearned this lesson too many times to count.
He is patient and gentle as he continues to remove my fingers from control. In my stubbornness I keep trying to yank it back from him only to have him pull away my fingers and tell me, yet again, “Trust me. I have this.”
It saddens me that I have not fully absorbed this lesson, except I know that I get it more now than a year ago.
Or at least I understand different facets of it that I never have before.
My faith continues to grow through these hard moments. I am grateful that He remains with me each and every day.
“It is because of him (God) that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God- that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption. Therefore, as it is written: ‘Let him who boasts boast in the Lord.’”
I Corinthians 1: 30 & 31
AMEN DEAREST