Have I not commanded you?
Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for
The Lord your God will be with you wherever you may go. Joshua 1:9
Time seems to stand still in the hospital. There have been moments I’ve stared at the clock, because surely the time couldn’t be right. But the second hand keeps ticking, and eventually an hour passes.
In case you were wondering, there’s nothing good on daytime tv, not even with all the channels they have. I’ve slept the majority of my time here, so finding something to do has not been an issue to concern myself with.
The hardest part of being here has been the separation from my kids, even knowing they’re in good hands, and enjoying their time with friends and family, I am anxious to be home with them.
We were all set to go home today (Saturday) when James asked the doctor about my lips and tongue being so pale. The doctor was concerned about this, and after examining me determined the inside of my eye lids were also white. He checked on my lab work, and because my hemoglobin had dropped from 8.7 to 7.7, he decided we should stay one more night for evaluation.
He thinks that this has dropped because of a combination of things: surgery, my drains, and I started my period while here. It’s not the best timing, but I am grateful as it is a sign my body is trying to heal itself and return to normal. I had been told that I may never have a period again, and could stay in a state of menopause. Even though it is possibly the cause for the current problems, I am hopeful it will help with in the future.
Tonight, I’ve upped my protein, and they hooked me back up to several monitors. They will closely watch me and revaluate on Sunday after my morning labs come back.
The hope is that I will stabilize and not need a transfusion, that my body will heal itself.
My heart remains in a state of thankfulness, and I am grateful for the excellent care of our nursing staff. They’ve been exceptional in all their care of me.
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