While rebuilding my health, I find myself considering the future and what I am to do with it. Over the last few years, much has changed and God has been chipping away at so many things that do not belong in my heart and life. He’s been wooing me to fully trust in him.
We’ve been slowly reading the book, ‘The Essentialist’ and this question caught my attention, “What does God want you to go big on?’
Much has changed, I’ve yielded much over the last few years, including my expectations and desires, and as I rebuild it is tempting to just go on with life, slip into old habits.
However, I no longer fit into those habits no matter how much they pull at me.
My perspective has changed, is still changing, and I want to rebuild on what He has for me, not on old habits and perspectives. I want something new, better than the old stuff from which He has delivered me.
Over and over again, I place my hope in Him. Sometimes I feel as if I am caught in a tug of war, trying to take it back before I yield to him.
Again, I must release, “Your will be done.”
Deep peace comes with truly yielding. Why do we pick up needless burdens so often, trying to make it our way, our will? When will I learn that His ways are always best? I want to truly rely on him, to truly remember in each and every moment that He is my sustainer.
I want to remember to live fully unto him, “Here I am.” He will supply the big. I only have to follow.
1 I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry.
2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and the mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.
3 He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear the Lord and put their trust in him.
4 Blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, who does not look to the proud, to those who turn aside to false gods.
5 Many, Lord my God, are the wonders you have done, the things you planned for us. None can compare with you; were I to speak and tell of your deeds, they would be too many to declare.
6 Sacrifice and offering you did not desire – but my ears your have pierced (opened) – burnt offerings and sin offerings you did not require.
7 Then I said, “Here I am, I have come – it is written about me in the scroll.
8 I desire to do your will, my God; you law is with my heart.”